I understand your reluctance to meet OW. I feel the same about my H OW.
There is a part of me that knows this ‘fear’ gives her power over me .. ,makes her seem much more important than she is. The thought of meeting with her gives me a huge feeling of dread. I just can’t get past this either. Even hearing my son mention her name makes me feel nauseous.
I wonder at times if it is that I am so darn hurt by her (and my H) that I just want to keep away to protect myself. Hide away kind of … I suppose I feel inferior…she must be better than me if my H chose her over me …
The ‘rational’ part of my brain knows that like any fear when faced it will evaporate. The only thing to fear is fear itself. She can’t harm me … she has done her worst. She has a hell of a lot more to lose than I do .. and yet, like you I am not ready either.
I don’t know; this is all kind of jumbled I just wanted to let you know I understand and you are not alone with this.
Nutty x
Be The Greener Grass.
Me 40 H 42 Son 11 Married 15 years. Left May 2006 after gambling spree I had EA August 2006 OW Aug 07 after another gambling spree (she will make me happy - stop me gambling!) I filed for divorce 9th April 2008.
