Completely and utterly devastated--how to cope

[istherehope]

Hi JJ,

Thanks for posting! So even with all of my pushing at the end (the questions about if I was giving him space, and then me saying it was odd that he couldn't spend the day with me), do you still think it's ok?

For what it's worth, while we were watching a movie on the couch, he was pretty normal with me, like grabbing my nose (he used to do this a lot) and poking me. He also kept pausing the movie to tell me about things. I kept talking about places to live, and even went so far as to ask if he would be interested in me looking into Singapore, and he said sure. He seemed to not be doing this out of guilt, but who knows...

Then he suddenly shut down at 730 PM and went to lie down-my train was meant to come the next hour. So I went into the bedroom to say bye, ML round 2. Then I left but when I came back he was up, so I think he'd just had his fill for the day...

I felt really weird when we left though as he was meeting friends at 12 AM after supposedly needing all this alone time...still, in the car he was friendly.

OK I'm obsessing again. I love your alien analogy. I'll try thinking of it this way. Was tour H like this about the space thing too?

Thanks!
ITH