Thanks. It's still so hard, but I honestly believe that this will all be worth it. The things I have been saying and doing, especially over the last two days, are proving that I *am* changing, that I *am* serious about my love for her and wanting to build a stronger R, and that I *am* sincere.
Any time that I feel down, discouraged, or negative about where I am/we are at the moment, I try to remind myself how far we've come in three months.
The weather here is overcast (again) and it's going to rain (again), so I was feeling blue. Then, as I was mowing the lawn, thought about how W asked me as we were hugging, "How does it feel to know that any time I *really* need something, I always come to you?" Still makes me happy and gives me hope.
The fact that she hugged me so tight that I couldn't breathe after I whispered to her that I love her "unconditionally and forever" also gives me hope.
The fact that she told me several times over the last two days that she still loves me - gives me hope.
Not so blue anymore, despite the sky getting darker and sprinkles starting.
Patience, strength, compassion, and wisdom. I pray for them each morning and each night. And He provides them.
A long way to go yet, but I believe we'll get there.
Me: 47 Kids: 2 boys, 14 & 8 Bomb: 5/5/08 Married: 16 years, together 20 Divorce final 8/11/10 I remarried, to an amazing woman: 3/17/12... "Once in awhile, in an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale"
