Men have cooties!!!! Wait.. wait... the idea of a 'relationship' has cooties!!!..
Hmmm.. wait..wait.. The only thing that makes sense is to let this door close before opening anything else. I'd say I'm very emotionally cautious. If a guy is nice to me, I stiffen because I've been programmed that all they want is sex (based on my childhood). I have a lot of behaviors to 'unlearn' which will make life much easier and enjoyable.
My first objective will be to stop worrying too much! (Where's a magic kumquat wand when you need it??)
