Well, the answer was not to go. There were a few e-mail exchanges that led to references to us going to the party together. I suppressed the urge to go, with my main focus on having time with H. I told H that I decided not to go because I would feel like we were pretending like we were together which was not healthy for any of us. I know, bad DBing.
I don't know if I got through to him, or if it means anything, but he is making a trip to see his best friend today. At least that was the plan last night. I just CANNOT believe that this new life he is leading is worth turning his back on me, his best friend and his mother. I so hope he sees that. I want to ask him if he thinks it is worth it. I want to ask if he plans to divorce me and marry HER and raise her two kids!!! I also want to tell him that if he is living in a fairy tale and has plans to move his new family close to his old one------we will be moving to Florida!!! Could an intelligent, at one time rational human being, really BELIEVE that a married woman willing to bed a married man is worth giving up your whole life for??? UGHHHHH!!!!!!
Ok, enough. Tomorrow is my birthday. A new year for me.
Me 45 M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08 D 18, D 14, S 12
