Memories keep sneaking in....I still miss him!

[Treese]

Morning everyone....

Well...wedding was pretty....I sat alone most of the night...most of the people were her realatives....I said hello...and talked to a few but for the most part I just sat and watched my son in the pool...it was okay..

Yesterday was my sons baseball banquet...H was supposed to come over at 5:15 to help load stuff because I had the video stuff, food, etc....I texted him at 5:00 to see if he was still coming and he said he was on the motorcycle that he would come at 5:30 to help load and follow us...well...if I had known that I would have started loading earlier...I thought we were taking his car....anyway I loaded it myself and I was getting in the car to leave and he came down the street....followed us to the pool and helped unload my car.....

The party was fun...kids had a blast..and my video was a hit...
moms were crying....anyway a bunch of us were sitting at a table and H was walking around...alone...doing stuff and finally came over and sat across from me at another table...because he might touch me....LOL...we started talking about our gambling trips and he would say the "we" & "us" stuff....I didn't pay much attention...then we were gathering stuff to leave and son asked if he was coming over and he said just to help unload....I asked him if he could keep son tonight overnight cause I was leaving early Monday morning for my trip with my mom and sister...he said, no problem...so far so good....
got home...unloaded...and he started carrying the stuff in came back to the garage, unloaded the cooler, and started gathering trash...cleaned up the frig in the garage and then came in to the house and i was in the kitchen with son and he came in sat down and started watching the olympics with son....we talked a little and he would look over at me and look me right in the eye...he's tired I can tell...anyway he ended up staying an hour and a half...as soon as he found out D16 was coming home to gather a few things for her friends he got up and left...passed D and she walked right by him....

They both left....I had no tears...heck I didn't even feel down...I do a little today but I just shut the door and went to bed last night....

So....I guess I'm trying to just be still....see what happens next...since they are different people everyday...

Today...I'm packing for my girls trip...I'm looking forward to it...just me, mom, and my sister...out to gamble...LOL!!