glam, I know - same here. My H has also missed so much of our life together and of our dogs. He totally missed out on our baby (dog) who passed away 18 months ago. He didn't get to see him before he was put down. We got him together and he was supposed to be the baby we never had. Now, he blocks the poor puppy from his mind. I think he almost hated him because he felt that the puppy took away my time from my H.
You are NOT a failure. You've come such a long way with your H. He's willing to see you and spend time with you and the kids. He might be closer to home than you think.
