Me divorcing him does not mean I wont keep praying..it just hurts too much to know he is still in touch with her.. I do have faith and I pray all day long and sometimes I can see myself walking into our friends house where he lives and I see myself hugging them and saying to them I knew God would do this
I have feelings in my heart that for some reason I KNOW IT IS COMING AT ANY MOMENT... and then I have doubt and fear I start praying and yes.. I get comforted by my all mighty God
And you are right I have been spinning and spinning with bad results... How do you just sit still BND I wish and pray that I can... but I just want to hear his voice...to touch him.. to see him in person and just hug him and tell him it is all going to be allright and I will be here for him when he is ready
When we speak on the phone and it is good he knows I love him and pray for him...and lately when I send him emails about blessiings he sends them right back to me.
and that makes me know that the Lord is speaking to him... I ask every night that God remove pride,to turn his heart of stone to flesh...for all the WAS spouses that have left behind broken hearted children and husbands and wives.. that we have a revival of them going home to their families....
God answers so many of my prayers for my children.. promotions,raises,relationships being restored and he always does this for me but I feel like he is not listening to mine ...I know this started in Jan.of 06 and it is not a very long time but I am tired...
I go to work and listen and pray for guidance...and I know God is right by my side... so why do I get so discouraged... I dont understand..
I will keep praying... we have a child still at home how can I not talk to him I admire so S/F and you for fighting till the end maybe you all have stronger faith than I. I really dont know what to do... I am crying I cant even see the keyboards..more like sobbing because I dont want to give up... but right now I see no other option..
They say that the devil is attacking us the most when something is going to happen and maybe he knows that someting is coming for the good of our family...
Since I have gone thru this I never believed in satan... but he is very real ...thoughts emotions and just wanting to do something bad... I will keep posting in here if nothing else just to vent and read. I know your story is one that was one of the hardest by what I read.. never really have read the whole story.. Just like S/F and Hoosiermom those are tough stories and yet they sre still waiting and being patient.. what is wrong with me
Sorry so long but I feel if I can just talk to people how are going thru this could maybe feel better.. God knows my family they are getting tired of me being sad..I am not like that all the time but I feel like I cant talk to them any more..
