I am so sorry you have chosen to just give up and that standing is too hard for you.
Who is going to pray for your Husband?
What happened to for better or for worse?
What happened to trusting God to heal your Marriage and restore it?
Don't get me wrong, it is your choice to do whatever you want to do, and if you feel you have grounds for a Divorce and God has released you from the Marriage, then by all means go for it.
You have support here regardless of the choice you make.
So far you haven't made many good choices and maybe it is time for you to just be still and stop spinning like a top.
How do you hear God's voice throught the chaos?
((((hugs))))
There can be no testimony without a test. I am praying to go through this test and come out the other end with a new and better marriage then before.