If I go, I will be hoping that H will see me in a good light, and think. If I don't go, I will not be going to avoid the uncomfortable situation of being with H. It would be out of character for me to want to put myself in an awkward situation, so if I go, it would in a way be a 180 for me. Would I have fun if I went, probably. There will be enough alcohol there to get me through anything, and make anything fun. If I don't go, I'll continue to wonder if going was the right thing to do.
See how screwed up I am???????????
Me 45 M 25 yrs; T 31 yrs;bomb 8/15/06; moves out 7/18/08 D 18, D 14, S 12
