trying to be patient and strong

[karen43]

At some point, Karen, I'd love to see you summon up the nerve to just walk up to your husband when he's sitting there alone, with no kids in earshot, and calmly say the above to him.

And then just walk away.

Puppy

Will do Puppy if he doesn't bring it up himself tonight or Tuesday. I have realized that the 180 I most need to work on is being assertive/standing up to H every time, as I tend to be sporadic on that sometimes; I hate it but need to do it I think. Next R: hopefully will not be with a bully type!!!

Having a wonderful morning today!!! The kids are with H hopefully having a great time and he is going to take them to church tonight (haha) at 6:30 (well at least the kids listen/learn!) and have them back around 8 probably, so a free day! I plan on some yardwork/housework then work out, then just goofing around and Movie Night tonight. So I am really doing great on the PMA today!

I talked to my big bro last night for like 2 hours. I updated him on all the legal stuff/crazy stuff H does. My bro thinks H is mentally ill (b/c of the pogo stick and bamboo creations etc.) but I think family members are always biased like that. He also told me that H had told him I was "going crazy" when my brother called him to tell him about the brain tumor back in December. That was about a week after H dropped the bomb about the D and OW. Don't know why that makes me a little upset but it does. Karen