Im still excited about our date last night. It's so amazing to me that we are in this place in our relationship. I'm happier now than I have been in a really really long time.
You asked me about talking about the future and I'd have to say that I haven't really brought anything like that up. I'm really trying to stay grounded on the days/week in front of me. I guess in part because it feels like I am in a dream and that at any moment I could wake up.
We did talk a little about moving in together again but my husband is still anti- that idea and still talking about his plans to buy a house for him and his friends to share. But he did not talk about it as much last night as he has in the past few weeks so that may be a good sign. I really don't want him to buy a house so I am just praying that we get things worked out further before he makes that decision. He is changing jobs in the next week and things are kinda up in the air so that might be just the thing to slow down his plans. I am really hoping our counselor can back me up on this house thing but we will not have another session until after the 18th because our counselor is on vacation right now. So I am a little stressed but at the same time trying to trust that everything will work out.
I did talk to him today. He started out texting but then he called which is another big step. I love texting but it says so much more when he actually calls to talk. We did not talk for long but it was all positive. I had sent him a text this afternoon before his meeting to tell him good luck and that I would support him no matter what happened. He brought up our counseling session and offered to call to make the appointment when our counselor is back in the office. Another big thing. I'm so happy/stuned that he is making such an effort.
And yet I am still trying to be cautious and guard my heart because I have read about situations like mine where the WAS gets closer and then randomly pulls away and distances from the relationship again. I hope it does not happen in this case but I am trying to be prepared for the worst. It's so hard though because I am falling for him more and more each and every time I see him. I don't want to give him back my heart just in time for him to rip it out and stomp on it again. Anyone from piecing have any advice on how to deal?
We are going to get together next week. I ended our phone call today by asking him to call me when he wants to get together next. That way the ball is firmly planted in his court and I will have a few days to GAL and work on me. I'm starting to think about getting into the habit of running again. I have some weight I would like to lose and have not been working out with DVDs because of my living situation right now (there is not a lot of room) and was thinking that it could help my relationship in the long run too. When my husband got home from AIT he wanted to take me running and so we went and bought shoes and everything but when we tried to run together he went all drill sergent on me and I told him that I would not run with him anymore unless he changed the way he approached it. But I was thinking it would be cool if I could start getting back into shape so that if/when we do move back in together it would be something we could do together and support each other in. So I might go out tomorrow and see how I do.
Well not too much else to say. I will post again soon.
