H took the Ds to a football game yesterday. He has four season tickets but didn't bother to ask me if I wanted to go until yesterday. I said no, that I felt if I wasn't invited until the day of that I wasn't really wanted. Today he took the Ds to an amusement park. H asked me a couple of days ago if I wanted to go. Again I felt like an afterthought so I didn't go.
I spent the day purging and packing. I will be glad when that is all done.
On an interesting note, H is calling more. He is back to text flirting. I will never figure him out, that is why I have stopped trying.
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
I was reading and thought maybe you could accept some of the invites and then get a chance to DB. I think that if you continue to say no then he'll stop asking and then you won't be able to show him some of your changes.
I'm so happy for you and your new home! The pictures are beautiful and I especially love the kitchen!
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
Good idea Jen, but I don't think I will be getting any invites from H in the near future. H is currently POed at me. I switch churches for the Ds and myself, something H knew I was going to do. However I didn't switch him. I thought it wasn't appropriate at this point to do it for him and register us as a family at the new church. H thinks I did it simply to make his life difficult. I think the reason he really got upset about it is because now the people at the church we were at will know that we aren't the perfect family they thought we were.
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
Mon - Ds and I went to work on my classroom. I am switching buildings so we have to move all my stuff and it is 20years worth. So we carried in lots of boxes and started decorating. They worked really hard so I was going to take them out to dinner. H called as we were walking out the door. I thought about what Jen told me and gave him a casual you can join us if you aren't busy. H still had work to do but he said thanks anyway and really seemed to appreciate the invite.
Tues - H went with me to Ds soccer match since his car was in the shop. It was his night and on the way to pick up D after the game I suggest he pick something up for their dinner instead of cooking. H did that and ended up inviting me to eat with them. After eating I ran out to run errands. I had asked the Ds if they wanted anything from the grocery store. H asked me to pick something up for him. I also gave him something else when he was leaving and again he thanked me and really seemed to appreciate it. I guess it surprises him when I'm nice.
Wed. AKA today - I went to sign my life away for the house. H had to go too and sign a couple of things. H was a little miffed because he didn't realize I was signing all the closing papers. When we left he was asking me a few questions about why I did the money the way I did and he agreed it made sense. Asked me a few other questions and seemed in a pretty good mood.
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
My life is almost packed up. Tomorrow I get the keys and the move is scheduled for Saturday. It would be easier if I didn't go back to work on Wednesday.
H is out of town, but he has not helped pack anything even while he was here. I was thinking of BBJ yesterday and of how she pretty much packed up her whole life along. At least I am leaving somethings here and I don't have to pack everything. H has offered to help with the move though and is going to be at the house for a couple of deliveries.
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
Yea! New house, new memories...How are you feeling? Getting excited???
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Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Hey Lola. Yes I'm excited, but I'm also getting stressed. Mostly because I start back to work tomorrow. Work is a change of building and grade. Also the administration is making a bunch of changes that will basically ad more work. Plus I'm running the Ds around to practices and games. I'll get through it, I just figure I won't sleep or rest much for the next coupld of weeks.
R 23 years M 20 years Bomb June 2007 S Oct 2007 Ds 11 & 16 Ds and I moved out Aug. 2008
Well, at least you will be busy GAL!!! Look at it as an adventure, you are starting a new phase of your life, and it is going to be fabulous!!! I am excited for you!!! (((Red)))
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
