For a long time I was looking for reconciliation. Now I have become so disgusted with him and his behavior that I dont even want to see him, let alone think of allowing him to be my H again.

The bottom line is that hes a jerk, and he can go sleep in the bed that hes made (oh yeah, he doesnt have a bed, hes couch surfing!). He has really become a loser lately, and I dont want someone like him around me. I dont allow my friends to treat me as poorly as he does, I will not stand for my H doing it.

I took the papers to our counselor today and now I have a pretty good idea of whats going to happen. Im going to ask him for half of the mortgage payment for the next year, I think thats reasonable considering the fact that he wants to store some things here, like his boat and 4 wheeler. And I dont think that he should be able to just walk away from our pets and things, I have 2 giant dogs who eat ALOT, he can help pay for that. I figure that if he wants out bad enough he'll sign anything I put out there! And if he agrees to that, I can keep my car, I dont know if he will, but it would be really great, and quite a load off of my mind!

Alright everyone, I have a date I need to get gussied up for.

Thanks for the advice and Have a great weekend!


I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...