no expectations 9

[peacetoday]

Hi
H called this am
I was surprized as he usually doesnt call me
but he had a few things, I guess he felt thr need to discuss
nothing that couldnt have waited
I also think he is concerned about my Brother who works for him
brother is not happy there and feels no connection to H with upcoming D
I dont think this will work out
but H choice and H consequences
back to the thought that MLCer cant expect to walk away and affect no one
they do become the "bad one"
I think h is cycling..I dont want to read to much into this as I have experienced these topuch and goes plenty in the last 18 months
yes 18 months now--of Pain, growth and lots of change
then when he came to visit kids, also friendly and talkative again
fixing stuff
No more talk about money and how he cant afford to pay me ( D)
He told D13 to use credit card for her day trip
One thing for sure
I dont trust him
I am going to get exactly what is most fair
I will not back downfrom what we need
he will have to survive on LRSS
again his choice
So I am still detached yet feeling more comfortable around H again
I am not scared
I am ready to let go
I am going forward
peace