On the other hand, your H would be being pretty cruel if he was leading you on with no intention of reconciling.
I'm sure the intention is - or was- there. And now suddenly it's not there anymore! He keeps making premature decisions and changing his mind. OH, I don't know. When he was here he said he wants to be back "for real", whatever that may mean. Then, after I confronted him a while ago about OWs presence in his home, he said "it's real", referring to his sitch with OW. I thought he meant her feelings for him. Now I think may be he meant HIS feelings for her?
May be I'm just fooling myself and twist his words so that I can go on hoping;
Sometimes I think that in the end "nice" MLCers are twice as cruel as the "bad" ones.
I'm glad that I cannot cry, though. If worst comes to worst, at least I will be able to take it calmly.
Unfortunately, I cannot sleep, either :(.
I ask not for a lighter burden, but for broader shoulders ____________________________________________________ M 46 H 45 D 17 M/T 23 Bomb #1 (ILYBNILWY) 12.06 Bomb #2 (OW) 12.07 Bomb #3 (chose OW over M) 9.08
