I can't believe that I took so much for granted. Our relationship and the marriage. I just KNEW that we were going to be the one's taking a walk in our old age holding hands. Just knew it. That our place was going to be the one that our friends and family loved coming over to. Sporting events, BBQ's, gatherings at holidays. That WAS us.
Then it just started to fade away slowly. Our friends dropped away one by one. She played a part in that. We had always felt so blessed. Then life started to take its toll.
It's just not any Fing fair. I know that I preach to my kids how life isn't fair, but damn. I have really done the best that I can in life. Tried to do things the right way. I have made my share of mistakes. More than I care to mention.
(((H4H))) I'm with yah man. I feel the same way. I ALWAYS thought that we would grow old together and I took EVERYTHING for granted and now I'm here.
The best you can do is get yourself together and be the best you, that you possibly can...for you. She is in her own fog and has to deal with this her own way. Its not over 'til its over, so this is just one flavor of hell that you get to experience. Go through the pain, learn the lesson and move on. There is a lesson here, we just have to go through it to learn the lesson and move onto the next chapter in our lives. I feel your pain.
BTW...I so wish I was there cuz I'd go see Seether with you in a heartbeat. Fake it is a great song. Go and have fun for both of us.
M:39 H:39 K:S14;D8 T:22yr M:15yrs S:12/28/07 EA/PA 3/14/08 OW preg 11/17/08 born 12/12/08 his ~~~~~~~ Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option
