I'm back after a long absence

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I think what makes me most sad is that I am not able to distance myself from it as much as I could during the heat of the crisis. I feel like I am too dependant and allowing myself to "live for the smile" kind of thing instead of focusing on my own needs. That is part of it as well, I feel like this has been going on for a long time and I am tired of the added stress, not that I am giving up or wanting to throw in the towel, just some days I am so tired of being the one who is shouldering the burden, I have to be the rock here, for myself, for my kids as well as for my DH when he needs one. I occasionally feel so alone in this, who is my rock? I guess I know the answer, I am, and I should be, but as I am sure many of us know, it is hard sometimes.