Well try counting sheep.
\:D Lets say not in your life for now.
Also by not in your life I mean as a fully paid up husband.
Dar I have never been one to sugar coat things that I don't see. My own pain was prolonged by well meaning people who saw sooo many baby steps and I gave me false hope.
Your situation maybe different as I said, One thing is for sure. You are not happy and spinning at the slightest thing purely because you concentrate too much on him.
Never give up hope but have more hope that whatever the outcome Dar will be great.
\:\)