Hope the evening isn't too painful. We are all here for you Dar but only you can do this. We can all offer our perspectives. Its what you want that counts. We all are different and are able to accept or put up with different amounts of doing nothing/trials and tribulations.
You are young, others are not and have had more life already. we all have different ideas of what a life should be. Just be calm and breath deeply visulise what you want or how you see your life going. Stop talking about H and whether or not he wants D. It is what you want that matters,how you live your life without H in it.
