Completely and utterly devastated--how to cope

[istherehope]

Thanks BH,

I'm glad that testing the waters doesn't sound too bad. In reality it was my impatience, i.e. not wanting to wait and see if he'd actually call, but I weighed up the benefits of definitely seeing him against waiting and likely not seeing him, and decided that as long as I could be positive during the meeting, these benefits outweighed the benefits of going dim.

He knows I am pretty eager to see him, but at the same time he knows my departure is imminent, and I have to believe this will have some impact on him. I really have been good about being positive, not crying, weeping or acting needy, and only acting excited about going to Poland.

I'll keep this thread posted on how things go tomorrow.

Have a great day,

ITH