Im so sorry. I know what the mind can do, and you need to get yourself busy. Life sucks, but you have to make it better for yourself and for your kids with or without her.
No it isn't fair, and everyone takes things for granted, its what we learn from all of this is what matters. I know I have learned that not everything is black and white like my Dad once taught me. He was from the old school and is a very stubborn man.
You will be ok, your young and have some much more you can do, and you won't always be alone, try to learn to enjoy the time you have to yourself.
Hang in there
me: 37 H: 44 Married for 18 years this june S7 S3 porn issues, and much more... since 7/06
Happiness can be found, even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light.
