I do these things too. I feel I'm better and better at it. The thoughts of him don't stay with me (except for days like today). Mostly they're thoughts like "H would like this" "what a nice time, too bad H missed out on this"....things like that. Where before I couldn't even stand the weekends because I missed him a ton. I'm emailing a friend now and we're talking about H. Maybe he doesn't want a D, just more time to "cook"? He's told me he doesn't want a D but then times like this come up and he's also said he's done. She said that he comes to me to talk when I don't ask about it and to not pressure him. Doesn't seem like it should be that hard right?
