Well, I had my performance review at work today. Went a lot better than expected. When I walked in, my bosses asked if I was nervous. I said yes. They told me not to be nervous. They said that despite the outside distractions and personal issues I've had, they understand that my work has very much improved from last fall when I was having difficulties. They said that they know that I have a long way to go with my personal life, but that my work no longer seems to be suffering due to it. That was a huge relief for me.
H called late on Wed. afternoon to tell me that the apartment deal with his buddy has fallen through. The guy's daughter is sick and he just can't commit to this right now. H told me about a place he'd found that he wanted to look at. Of course, a place getting near OW. He called me later and told me that he just couldn't do that place because it's way to far from work?? Odd to me because all the other places they had looked at were even further away. Anyway, we talked a little bit about places to look for what he would need. He was able to come up with a list of about 10-15 places that he called on. He called yesterday and asked if I would go look at them with him. My first intention was to say no...do it on your own. Then, I got to thinking about how D4 will be staying at his place. Knowing H, his first thought will be how it will benefit him. I feel like I need to be there to push D4's needs also. He has 5 appointments between tonight and next Wed. We'll see what he finds. And yes, he's still been sleeping in his car.
I talked to D4's daycare director today. We agreed that it will be best for D4 to keep her schedule and keep her with the kids than to pull her for a full month, as H had requested. I know that H needs a break financially, but the director has agreed to work a very good deal for the month of August. I know it's not my financial responsibility, but I may pay part of it so D4 can keep as much stability in her world as possible.
It's been kind of quiet at home. I'm trying to get settled. D4 and I decorated her room last night so she was happy about that. She's been trying as much as possible to help me with things. She makes comments about daddy, but I do everything I can to assure her that he loves her. I was talking to my dad last night and I said a man's name. We were talking about someone from back home. Boy are her ears WIDE open. She later asked me who he was and if I knew him. I assured her that it was a friend of the family from back home. It sure seems like she's got a lot more questions than she ever did before.
