Thanks for the concerned note. All I will say here is that in addition to the many experiences that are put in our paths, we are also given free will and a set of gifts and talents to do use or not use to help us along our way. Happy Friday Friends!
It is very interesting to me the way people react to me telling them I am trying ADs. I have only told 4 "real life" people...and the support is split down the middle. The 2 who have known me the longest, my sister and my BFF are very supportive. Sis says "good for you for taking care of yourself" and BFF says " You do not have the energy and full-of-life-ness you once had and should have. All this crap that has gone on way too long has worn you down way too much, and you need to use whatever you can find to help you. The docs just better find something useful quickly!"
My other 2 VGFs were quite the opposite. One said that if I got too hyper "she would hit me" and the other said that I have been able to dig myself out in the past and I should be able to now, as well.
It is true that depression is something I have struggled with my whole life. It runs in my family, tho with Mom there is a strong anxiety component and not sure about my sisters.
This is not something I am doing lightly. I exercise, have a great "real life" support network of friends and the BB here. I do yoga. I journal. I have been in therapy for 5 years! I feel like I have made a concerted effort to get back on track and feel better.
My doctor asked me a few questions and I filled out one of those depression questionnaires. I came out as moderately depressed. Part of the problem is that some people think that you are only depressed if you are sobbing all day long sitting among a pile of trash and dirty laundry. Well, I haven't been that bad...but I am definitely on the scale. (Related to this is a book called "Feeling Good" that has some self-tests to gauge where you might be on the scale, as well as some coping techniques)
I discussed pros and cons w/ my doc. One side effect is decreased libido, which is actually OK for me now, since I am not in a relationship! She recommended Zoloft which is for depression without anxiety. I picked up my supply and will start today. I was told not to drink while on this, so I wanted to wait until today...because drinking was on the agenda for last night due to a certain someone turning (Let's just say...) 30...again! Also recommended to take in the morning since it could interfere with my sleep. I am not so busy the next 3 weeks, so I will be able to monitor my progress.
So off to get the day going...finished my coffee and I should walk the wonder pup.
Oh, btw C2H...marking isn't being Naughty...it's being Male!
Survival Goddess "The most common way people give up their power is by thinking they don't have any." -Alice Walker
and the other said that I have been able to dig myself out in the past and I should be able to now, as well.
(Let's just say...) 30...again!
