I can't tell you how many times I wish I didn't lover her so it would make it easy for me to let go and to just move on. Why do I have to be so much in love with her? If we couldn't stand one another or I hated her, the decision to leave would be a simple one. But then I think what would I do without her? This has to be one of the most frustrating dilemmas, to stay or go... love 'em or leave 'em.
It does feel lonesome when you feel like they are not there for you 100%. I want to give her my all and she wants to be left alone. It's not just sex, it's wanting affection from them and it can't all be one sided. If they can't find it within themselves to show us their love on their own what can we do? I'm really trying to bring this out, however in the end it is up to them to decide if they want us or not.
You are not alone in the hurt caused by the longing for things to be different than they have turned out to be. But we still can't change what has already been done. We can only move past them and do what we can to make the present the best it can be.
One thing I got out of PM that applies here is to remember that there are times for everything in life. You can't always be happy. There are times to be happy and there are times to be sad. Times to be together and times to feel alone. We have to remember that these feelings of loneliness and hurt will pass and there will be times of joy and feelings of love once more... the time just isn't right now.
It is hard but we have to believe in ourselves enough to get through this, whatever the outcome may be.
