Have you checked out the Charlyne Cares Q&A? I think you will find it very helpful as it will help you to deal with what you are going thru from a Biblical perspective.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19