Looking for support from other WAS's

[lost3031]

So today is our 10th wedding anniversary. H sent me a beautiful text message first thing this morning. I mailed him a card (albeit a funny one) that told him, despite everything that's going on, I've never regretted marrying him and that I thought it was amazing that I still love him and consider him my best friend 10 years later.

Still, it's a sad day for me. We always planned on doing something really big for our 10-year anniversary, like go on a cruise or buy something really extravagant for the house. Quite simply put, it wasn't supposed to be anything like this... To make matters worse, I'm supposed to attend the wedding of a co-worker tonight and I'm not sure I'll be able to hold it together.

A lot of things lately are bringing me to a meltdown. Last night, I attended karaoke at a local pub and someone sang "Piano Man" which was always the song that H and I and all our friends would sing on camping trips and weddings, etc. It made me miss everything so much that I had to spend a few minutes in the restroom to get myself together. Oh, and I'm working on filling out the worksheets that the marriage counselor gave me for "homework" and looking at my answers makes me think that I might have some major depression developing, which is kind of scary.

I don't really have any questions or anything today. Guess I just wanted to vent a little...