Completely and utterly devastated--how to cope

[istherehope]

I was looking through our US bank account--I always do this online, no snooping. Anyway I saw a charge for true.com. Apparently it's a dating site. I had to go back to my apartment and be alone for about 30 minutes before I could come back and talk to H without going ballistic. However, I thought maybe he had signed up for an account for his mom or something, as we always tried to get her to do Internet dating. So I asked him if he knew what the charge was (via IM), and he said no. I called the company, and they said it was a male profile, but none of the details matched H, and the address was in Florida, the age was about 20 etc. the name was different...Anyway I can only hope it actually was a fraudulent charge. Part of me thinks he is lying to me and that maybe he had a lot to drink one night and signed up for this so that he could have internet chats. This isn't really like him though, at least I wouldn't have thought so in the past. I just am suspicious because usually he is extremely cautious about things like fraud and credit card numbers being taken, but he pretty much didn't respond to anything about this. I'm just feeling sick to my stomach...

ITH