JUST USED LRT-WHAT DO I DO NOW???

[Sanderika]

Hello Braveheart,

I thank you for your opinion. I have been with this man since I was 15 years old. We have a huge history together and have created a life together where everything about us is interconnected. Letting go is not easy. This man is in my heart and soul.

Some days I feel like doing exactly what you just said BUT then I have more days where I can't. I cannot explain my feelings completely. I feel he is doing what he needs to do right now to arrive at a better place.

I went back and read a lot of your posts last night. My H is a typical MLC guy. MLC triggered by depression and loss of his mother. Went looking for OW to satisfy needs not being met at home. Looking for freedom and youth and irresponsibility. I was not meeting his needs due to my own depression triggered by loss of loved ones, overworked, overwhelmed and exhausted. I don't need to go on....

I have done a 360 and I guess I feel my H will do one too. I do not believe that this life he has found is making him happy. I feel he will find that out in due time. I do have hope that H will find his way home...I know it appears unlikely.

I hate this place BUT for some reason I have to live it...I feel like I have learned my lesson BUT there is a higher power that says WE have not. I do not know what is in store for us.

Some say everthing happens for a reason...I hope this is happening so that we both one day will realize....what we want is what we already had and then we will be able to embrace each other with a new and fresh outlook on our marriage.

Sanderika