Hey guys, thanks so much for the support. I just knew afterwards that I had closed the book on any chances I MIGHT have had left with the wifer. But it was a good talk.

I SWEAR I hate the term, "....just a friend."

Had a great day with all my kiddo's. Got up early and cooked up breakfast. Up and going to eye doc. Took S14 to his dads place to wait for the girls and I to finish. He would have been bored. I took his place at the eye doc. D6 is 20/20 like her brother. D11 is 20/30, about the same as last year. She wanted new glasses, so since its covered, sure, pick some out. Same with me. I lost mine over a year ago. Haven't been to the doc since '03. Not much change. Just need for driving, but not required. Got some very updated ones.

Rico suave!

Run to Dollar store for some $3 sunglasses for the girls. Dilated eyes. Pick S14. Rush to Six Flags. CROWDED. At parking station, sign was up. SOLD OUT. It was about 12:45. They were out by 11:00. Off to eat lunch then hit the movies. "Get Smart". I think I fell asleep for about 30 minutes of it. Missed the whole dance scene. The rest was ok. Afterwards, trying to fill in time till GBG got off work. Hit Target. Window shopping. I did ride a bike around the store and embarrassed the hell out the kids. Got S14 a backpack. I had D11 call her grandmother to see how she is. She invited us over for dinner.

I'll take free dinner any day.

Home cooked chicken fajitas. Refried beans, fideo(like spanish rice, but with vermicelli pasta), homemade tortillas, and iced tea. A Texican feast. GBG calls. Tells me she is trying to get off early. She'll call me when she is headed home.

I had to call her to have her leave our Six Flags drink containers on her patio for me to pick up later. She tried to engage me in convo after I asked.
"Okay, I'll put them out there. Wow, I overslept."
I didn't say anything. I just thanks and talk to her later. Bye.

Ends up that she was supposed to go in late anyway, so getting off late. I tell her the kids and I were invited to eat at mom's.
"Oh. Okay. Then, I'll just see you at the apartment. I have to go because they are puting in the cable and the phone."
"This late?"
"They said between 4 and 8."
"Okay. I'll call you later."

Take all the kids home. I ask s14 if he wants me to take him to his mothers place.
"No, just take me to my dads. I'll be with her on Sunday."

I thought he might want to see her a little, but I didn't say anything.

At apartment, SIL is there again. I see a box for a vaccum cleaner in the living room. I have no idea where she is getting the money for all the crap she is buying. Well, I guess I do, but hate to think about it. I did not go in. She asks if I want to take the puppy or leave it. She is smiling at me. I told her its up to her. D6 says she wants it to stay. GBG says it will keep them busy tomorrow. She starts to talk a little.
"The dog started to chew at the door here. Look."
I look at it and I just say, "Uh oh. Okay girls, hug and kisses! Gotta go!"

Hugs and kisses. Big ones as always. I remind D11 to call me tonight. I can see GBG just looking at us. Again that face. Its hard to explain. Like disappointed or something. I start to walk away.

She says, "Bye. Thanks."
Quick glance back, "Bye." Not sure what the thanks was for, but I let it go. Is she thinking I did her a favor?

D11 yells something. I yell back, "What!?"
GBG yells back, "She said she'll talk to you tomorrow."
"Okay!"

Last night, we were trying to figure out the visiting schedule in S14's room. HIS schedule between GBG, his dad and me. I kept telling the kids how much I hated this too, but we have to be strong and do the best with what we are given. And that we have to just accept certain things.

Now, I don't think that I'll see them until Sunday. GBG mentioned the other day about maybe going back to Laredo. Her dad invited her. He wants to buy the kids some school clothes.

I'll have all weekend to myself. Have no idea what I'll do.

Yet.

Last edited by hopeful4her; 08/08/08 02:49 AM.

Me 47, WW 38
SS18, D15, D10

Good Bye Girl. No longer SAYING she's moving out. GBG moved out 8-1-08

"I have now decided to enjoy life instead of figure it out."