She really has no idea what I do, I think she knows I am lot more active nowadays. I wasn't prepared for the shock and frustration of all of this. It's been 2 months since she left me and I realize that is early, I can't shake the people who tell me to move on. Yeah, the minute I feel mopey I go out with people to get my mind off of it, but it's always there. :-( I don't need her to be happy. I don't need her period. I know this because I was happy before her. We all make mistakes and I am to blame for everything before the affair, just not during or after. Just want her to come back to me so much. Lord please grant me the ability to take each new day and see it as a fresh start to better myself.
2. Your relationship with your wife is over when YOU say it is over ----MarkF
