Inlaws have been here all day...they are taking kids to their house for a week. I'm not going, first time I've stayed behind.
They stay w/me whenever they come.
Earlier in the week I tm'd H that they would be here in case they would like to go to dinner or something...that I had to work.
Anyway, nothing has been said, H never spoke to them...they haven't said one word about him all day. It's like he doesn't exist.
Just now, H called his mom. It hurts.
They were talking happy, happy...and I can tell he's telling her how great he is doing...that he is working so hard, etc, etc...
The inlaws live 4 1/2 hours away...I heard her tell him to 'come on down'...
They've been telling me the same thing all day too.
I don't know if he knows if I'm staying home or not...I don't know. It doesn't really matter. '
What really hurts, is that she got off the phone, and won't say anything about him.
It scares me when or why they act as if he doesn't exist. Why do they do that?
It hurts that they talk behind my back. Again...it hurts to feel left out.
I am doing my best to let go...leave it be and let the cards fall where they may. Part of my doing this is letting the kids go somewhere without me....and with H's parents. I don't want to be the obstacle to H's reconnection.
But, when they don't acknowledge him...or stuff...I fear they know something terrible that would really hurt me.
I'm messing with my mind...my reactions/reflex emotions are freaking me out!!
So...can anyone calm me down and put things in perspective??
Sophie
~~ Me-50 H-38 Married 15 years 8/7/08 D8 S10 S13 H affair 11/04-7/04 maybe longer H moved out 4/06
7/30/08- present: Reconnecting w/kids,friendly 10/30/08 H signed D papers 11/10/08 D papers filed 11/13/08 D papers served at home
