Yo yoing has begun...not surprised...disappointed perhaps..but who knows? I'm trying to make our interactions positive...I've slipped up once today...but it didn't even phase him. He's living in his own bubble and isn't really aware of other's around him. Sad but true.
Yoyo - his pace is the only pace we live by....kids included. Even tho they aren't fully aware of what's going on...they know he's off kilter...they call me when they think he is at work and give me updates...they always ask...how's dad? I report about how busy he is at work...or if he's feeling down....sometimes when he is around we'll call them together.....I don't know how long he thinks we can keep the separation from them...I guess it's easier since they aren't here to see...??? I don't want to lie to them...if they ask, then I'll tell...H knows this...
H originally said we'd see how things are in a couple of weeks....I think he thinks that if he changes his mind...they will never know and never think any differently about him. He's worried about his image to others...family, friends included. Image is very important to him....even if it isn't the truth...so sad....
The kids never call him on his cell...they, like me, know he won't answer it if he sees our numbers pop up. How sad.
Not a great day for me today....but tomorrow is another day...I will start over each day until the good ones start running together.
Rainy weather didn't help!
Hugs everyone!
BA
Me:43 H:48 M:24 yrs T: 26 yrs 2 kids ILYNILWYA 8-07 - MOW 9-07 H moved out 8-2-08 Back 8-18-08 Affair continues Back home but not emotionally
