Hi Lola. I appreciate your input and I do understand what you and Jon are saying. I would say that my friends have been overall supportive. The worst thing I've heard is W's aunt saying that she abandoned her kids at which point, I jumped in and defended my W cluing her aunt into the circumstances of things.
All of that said, I'm really very angry at times. I know that I'm not perfect and that it takes two people to have a disagreement. That said, I'm very angry with W right now. SO, I'm not looking for validation of my anger and I'm not looking to bad mouth my W all over hell and creation
I spent so many years afraid of losing her and swallowing down what I knew wasn't right that now I know that I was right and that W doesn't seem to have changed one bit with regards to this issue, I'm NOT sure I want to continue with her except that I do love her and I don't want to hurt the kids. Thus, what I really want is for her to have a change of heart regarding the things that she has done and I can't think much about it or I get angry and since I've made a commitment to myself to try these next seven months, I'm not helping things when I go down this path.
OK, that's an unbroken stream of consciousness poured out as text.
So, I have MC in 2 hours and I haven't the foggiest idea what to say or where to take things. Thus, I will be the perfect gentleman and let ladies go first. It's strange, but, in many ways, these last 2 weeks since the snooping and the "That's it, we're through" have been better than the previous 4 months.
