I am feeling I should just be in the M, and not think about leaving or ending it. And, see where that gets me. Maybe, H feels that I am on my way out, and is putting up fences as a way to self protect?
We are in the process of buying a new house (investment for our retirement, apparently), and I think I need to see us together in the future, and plan for that. If things really don't work, then I think I will know, and I will change my plans accordingly. But, for now, I will just be and take whatever positives I can from the R. I spoke to a friend the other day, who went through a similar sitch ... she said it took her H five years to realise the pain he caused, and to truly reconnect (he was also not interested in ML, and mourned the loss of OW for a fairly long time, etc.), and now he is just a fantastic H ... and they are very happy. She said it took a lot of work, and a lot of patience on her side. She just decided that she did not want to be divorced, and took it from there. They did, however, go to a MC for those many years, which we are not doing.
I am thinking that we should go to retrouville. Or, find a MC around here. We definitely need a third party to help us work on communication, and how we can rebuild the trust.
Anyway, got a load of housework to do, so will leave it at that.
Take care, y'all!
Me:57 H:52 M:28 Got another lawyer last year and filed. D35,S/D twins28,D22 EA4/04 End? Who knows? "Life is like a mirror. Smile at it and it smiles back at you." — Peace Pilgrim
