Since my Dad's passing and the passing of my job, I've had a lot of time for reflection.
Seems I've been extremely moody lately with my D23. Pretty much everything she says irritates me. By the time she graduates college she will have been there for 6 years. And, during this time, I've been doling out money to her. Her father is no longer helping financially. Also, I resent the fact that she "expects" favors from me. MG and I are giving her a lot of furniture from our combined households. We agreed to take it to her next weekend. I met up with her last night to deliver a box that she'd requested and brought some other boxes that were hers also. She said that she could "only" take the box she'd requested because she was between moves. I told her that MG wanted me to take as much as I could because his truck would not hold "everything" that was coming to her and we didn't want to make more than one trip. Her response was "Tell MG......whatever." I cut her off before she said anything more and told her that she should be grateful that MG was giving her all this furniture and bringing it to her. Then, she said "Mom, I was just kidding." Aaaaargh!!! Maybe she was but I'm just not in the mood for it from her right now.
Soooooo, at the moment, my R with my D sucks and I don't know what to do about it.
Next, I go to court with X on Sept 5 for 2 hours!!! This is to attempt to get the money he still owes me. It's accruing interest as we speak. There have been times when I just want to say "Screw it" and forget about the money and hassle of trying to get it. I hate the fact that it has come to this. My D23 is scheduling her move into her new apt so that he and I don't run into each other. I hate that she has to do that.
More.....I can't seem to keep my mouth shut around D23 about X. For the past 3-4 yrs I've been very good about only saying good things about him or nothing at all. I seem to be done with that and my D is upset with my bad mouthing him. I sometimes feel like she's now on his side in all of this. Aaaaargh!!! So, how do I stop when I'm so upset with him and her???
So.......my "new" attitude seems to be a bad one and I need help turning it around.
But......I've become very focussed on my diet and exercise which is a good thing. I think I bought about 50 lbs of fruit yesterday and I'm taking all healthy stuff camping this weekend. I've been walking/running and riding my bike every night when the sun goes down. Next week I'm checking out a new gym that supposedly has lots of classes.
And........MG bought me a scooter!!! I love it!!! It's red and shiny and so much fun to ride. Totally unexpected.
Anyone wanna smack me upside the head for being such a nutcase lately??? (besides Beth of course)
