Haven't posted in a while. I am just going to put all my feelings out there.
I'm pissed off...at myself....at H...at everything. After being told again lastnight that H doesn't want to be around me, doesn't see a future and doesn't want to give me false hope I think I'm ready to move on.
I cannot believe that I have actually been dragging myself around depressed over a man that left me...left me with all the financial responsibilities of the house we bought together, the 2nd mortgage, the dog and cat I didn't even want and all the blame he put on my for our failed marriage. The truth is I do have fault in the relationship...I wasn't the best wife...wasn't even a good friend at times, but damn it...neither was he.
I think it's time I get some self respect and stop acting like a doormat. I can't take his rejection any longer and I don't deserve it.
