Memories keep sneaking in....I still miss him!

[Treese]

Naej....
Supposedly the mother of the child was on the pill when she got pregnant..I just don't buy it..she probably did think he was going to leave me for her....the reason I say she trapped him is because she was the type to just hang on H and so she did get what she wanted...she got to have his child which keeps them connected forever..this will be her only child...and she hurt me in the process....I don't know what H told her about me during that time but we were Happy or I thought we were...

As far as a paternity test....I think my L can request one....but still not sure how I will handle that....when we asked H if he knew for sure it was his he said, "well, she said it was"....it's just odd she didn't want any support or anything and now she is engaged to someone else....he can go after H for support for the kid...

I still have not come to terms with the whole other son thing...I don't want my kids thrown in to that if I can't even understand yet....it wouldn't be fair....

And the new mistress...well she opened her arms to H and his other son....he can bring him to her house so they can spend time together....yeah....that's what I'm dealing with but it's all a fantasy world....do they really think everyone will live happily ever after....

I will and have poured myself in to my children....so much so that I feel overwhelmed at times....just because i have no help...and writing all this is kind of making me angry at H....

I just wanted to get married, have children, raise them, become grandparents, retire and travel...with my H....a Happy Family...
wow...the curves life throws at you....