Ready to GAL...Drop the Rope...Detach..2...

[ddstartingover]

Now, my birthday is Monday. This will be my first birthday with H out of the house, and my first that I may not have any contact with H. My first birthday since my 16th birthday. I still remember the surprise 16th birthday my H threw for me.................I still can't believe that THIS is my reality. I wlll have the kids though, even though it is technically "his night."

I keep telling H we need to talk schedule, and he says, I'll call you----but doesn't. I'm beginning to feel like I'm ready to play hardball when it comes to scheduling. I'm just sick of the avoidance..........

It's now been a week since I told him I knew about OW---and still nothing. He didn't say one WORD when I told him. He's acted like nothing's changed since. I'm beginning to regret the statement that I made about not telling the world about it......

I have glimpses of my strong self............I think sometimes that I am so much better than someone who would "kill" to have her cheating husband back. Why am I willing to pretend like it didn't happen? What does it say about me that I'm willing to overlook this. I tell myself that it's because of the love in my heart and the committment to my kids, our family and marriage----but is it because I'm just weak, and dependent????? Pefect justification for working on GAL...............