Where do I go from here? pt. 2

[tpaschal]

Pam,

Thanks for listening, and for your support and encouragement.

I think what you said about having S9 address it is a good idea. I think I will ask him if he wants to handwrite a couple of sentences just saying something along the lines of: he wrote this, asked me to type it, and wants H to have it.

How old are your kids? And how old were they when your xh first left and the D happened? How did they handle things, and how are they now? Do they have a good relationship with their dad?

The kids are, of course, my biggest concern. They are hurting and struggling from all that's going on, and H keeps inflicting fresh wounds, as well.

S9 asked me the other night when the D would be finished, and I said probably a month or so. He said, "Well, I guess we won't be seeing Daddy anymore after that." I told him of course he would, that the schedule would stay about the same as it is now. He said, "I don't think I'll want to see him anymore after that." He feels so betrayed. I just held him and told him I understood how he was hurting and encouraged him to talk about how he was feeling. He did talk for a while. I just feel so lost as to how to help him. I can't MAKE H be a good dad.

I know I need to be strong for them, and right now it is very hard as I sometimes feel I am drowning.

T