Yoyo, totally agree.

I wasn't perfect, far from it. But never once did I want to/nor step out of the marriage, at all. Once H did that, he made it even worse.

And yes, yoyo, H will step out of the fog, and admit he did things wrong too. But then he doesn't remember either. Typical. He feels bad the affair hurt me, but I swear he still justifies it.