I was just thinking how I say I'll never forgive W for the A and reconcile with her.
Tonight when I was posting to Sara's I was talking about the kids and how they no longer see love between parents, how much it does to the kids, what kind of example we have shown them lately. Then I thought to myself, maybe I would be open to reconciliation for them. I do still love my W but she doesn't love me and I have no contol over her or her actions.
She is so far gone right now I know she will never even consider the thought. But someday I know she will come crashing down from her fantasy land. I'm in limbo still, between love and hate.
Do I wait, do I keep trying, should I say anything, or should I move on with my life. Her actions say goodbye, but my children say why daddy why, you just want to cry.
My plan was to move on with my life, but the kids keep pulling my mind back to what is right, what is best for them, can I try again.
See how confused I've been.
M45 W41 M10.75 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 W files for D 07/18/08 Date I'll forgive W for A = never
