Sara: I just feel so lonely. And to be honest with you all here, I get jealous of those of you who have kids. I know that by not having kids, it made everything "easier" on me with the divorce.
I'm lonley also, Sara, Its not that it makes it easier on you with kids, its the way if effects the kids. I worry about them always, how are they feeling, I know they miss their mom on the weekends and it just adds another layer of sadness to this whole thing. It doesn't take your focus off the pain it adds to it, becasue you have little ones to worry about. They no longer see mom and dad show love for each other, what example is that for kids.
Be happy you didn't have to see your kids wonder where their Mom or Dad was at. What made me cry was when I was working downstairs and my S5 was calling out dad, dad, where are you dad, when he found me, I asked him what he wanted, he looked up at me and said I just wanted to know where you were at I could see he was worried, its just so sad.
Your lucky Sara, no little ones to watch as their heart breaks and see them confused about whats going on.
I'm lonley also Sara, we talked about this before, how friends begin to go their own way becasue everyone is busy with their own lives, having the kids doesn't give you a lot of adult conversation. So you can be lonley with kids. I do believe it will get better. I have faith in God, he has a better life waiting for me, (hopefully soon)
M45 W41 M10.75 years D9, D6, D6, S5 OM confirmed 12/07 merry christmas to me WAM (Walk Away Mom) 05/31/08 W files for D 07/18/08 Date I'll forgive W for A = never
I could see he was worried, its just so sad.