I don't know what to do anymore...
Because of things that I found snooping (i know, i know), The Horse has been treating H like [censored] b/c he didn't move in with her when she moved...as he says, she has been "treating him like a leper." and he realizes that he is putting so much effort into her when he thinks that it is bad, for the sake of hoping it will work out b/c he has chemistry with her.

From the snooping he said, "it's funny when you have more trouble leaving the girlfriend than the wife. that's when you really start questioning wtf is wrong with you."

he also said about The Horse, "i just really have never had chemistry with anyone like that. so it's hard to extricate."

I just started crying when I saw that. I realized when I saw this that he absolutely doesn't care about me. \:\(

H & I, both 32, together since 18.
*M 7/03, A since 9/06. Bomb 7/07, H ended it w/ OW 9/08
* Agreed to D 6/09...very hard
*D 8/10
* At peace, have become great friends w/ X-H and his new GF