Oops, boy I really am confused. Didn't even put anything in here to post. Let me try again. I am very new here and have read the first chapter of SSM, thought it was very good. I intend to get the book and read it entirely. I can identify with the feelings of being unloved. My marriage has not been a real marriage in about 8 years. I am no longer even in love with my husband. I care what happens to him but if he were to come to me tomorrow and say he wanted a divorce, I would not care. In fact, I wish he would. I hate going home most of the time and look for things to do out of the house to keep me away. The reason I am there is I cannot afford to support myself with the 2 dogs I would be taking with me. We have slept in separate beds for about 5 years now. I was ready to leave about 3 years ago when H suffered a heart attack, then another, then heart bypass surgery. I could not live with myself if I left him when he needed someone the most. So I stayed. He had problems with the surgery which kept him off work a year and we almost lost everything. So no the finances are such that if we were to divorce now, I could not support myself with my dogs. Sex? oh boy, what is that? We have not even hugged or touched in over 2 years. We have not had sex for about 5 years. I believe alot of his problems started when he was much younger but he refuses to get help of any kind. Is there a book or advice for the person who doesn't want to save the marriage but wants out? Any feedback would be appreciated. Thank you
