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If I am reading you rightly, you are in a similar situation as myself. Your self confidence is shot, you are angry and bitter at life, God, and yourself and most especially your wife for making you feel like her kid instead of her lover.
I don't have the answer for you, but figuring out who you are first is going to be critical.
