Maybe you are right FIB~

Just stop.
I am getting too tired of fighting for this.
I know that is not what you meant for me to give up literally but I also think he wants me to.

He was good when he got home and then I did what you said ACJ~

well I looked hot. He was outside with the crew tipping a few back and I went out with the pretext of a cigarette.
Yes, I have started to smoke some again.
Anyway, He was receptive and he even lit my cigarette.
I came upstairs. He came up shortly after and then we kissed and he flirted with me.

Then it all went south....


It is a long story but he got mad I got mad. And then the [censored] hit the fan. He brought up his Family every chance he got.


You are bullsh*t ,just like them.
If you want to leave cause you dont like it go [censored] ahead.
I know who I am .
You dont do anything for me.
Oh, am I supposed to hug you and say everything is ok , please!
Leave that for me , I am going thru so much you are not, you are bullsh*t.
I dont care what you think, you are just like them, you dont know me.
I wanted you to cook just for me.
You should have b*tched at your ex husband like this.
( dont know how he got in the convo)

You are a dumb a** B*tch.


I said... hey if you want to talk about what your Family said lets talk about it but dont put me in with them I am not like them.


Dont pretend you know me nobocy knows me, noone.
If you think cooking me this piece of sh*t food means anything you are wrong , I can do this too.
You arent doing me any favors.
I actually work.
And dont [censored] cry, what are you crying for.


Oh and he took his ring off and dropped it on the floor.

I asked ( just what he wanted I am afraid, I should have stayed quiet)

" WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU."

I just took it off b/c my hand is swollen and I have a blister. You are so stupid!


~WOW.


I said ..


You know if youd let me finish.

Can you please let me [censored] go to sleep. If I remember correctly I went to work and i got up early this morning and you were laying there like you got run over by a truck.

NICE~


Anyway , last nite I was ready to say lets just end this....
I really was and those thoughts are scaring me to be honest.

I bit my lip several times....
I dunno if I am up to this.

~Ali