I can hardly believe you have been at this for such a short time. Reminds me of a Robert Redford film a couple of decades ago; "The Natural."
We should all print out your above post, glue it to a 2 X 4, hold it with both hands and periodically pop ourselves on the forehead with it like those monks at the beginning of "Monty Python and the Holy Grail."
"The answers are within you" (can't remember who). Unfortunately, so is the bullshit.
