Memories keep sneaking in....I still miss him!

[Treese]

Thanks everyone....I will say a special prayer tonight....not only for my D but for all of us and all this MLC crap....I need to really pray for patience....it's wearing thin...

now....I need to vent....OK....so how do you all keep doing this...I mean when your H's don't contact the kids....it ticks me off.....

H saw son last Thursday...went out of town and only dropped by on Sunday to get his car...hasn't contacted son...and he knows he's sick..he still has a fever and his ear still is hurting..these ear infections are awful....I am so mad....I had to get on here so I didn't call and chew him out....I feel like sometimes giving up...H doesn't care....AT ALL!!! How does he go about his day and not ever even think about calling the kids? HOW? He looks perfectly fine to me other than he looks a little tired but I'm sure he'll catch up on sleep at OW's house....I'm tired of sleeping alone...I don't sleep well as it is....I'm putting on a front with looking like I'm fine and happy....but I'm NOT!! I still cry...I still think about him...ALOT!!! why does he get to do what he wants while I take care of everything else...why does he get to go out and have fun, drink, have sex, not come home til he wants to, and then if he has a free minute he will call his kids...WTF? Can you tell I'm a little angry this evening....

My friends say for me to go file...get it over with..move on with my life....I don't want to....I want my family back...Darn it....I hate this ride....HATE IT!!!!

SF...how are you so patient??? I am praying...I am trying not to think about it....but it sneaks in and boom....it takes over...

H is just really ticking me off now......did you ever just get really angry at him?....tell him off?....

And I never did respond to him.....